so much of this blog is dedicated to the bad moments and trying to be better, which is maybe the asian in me talking, but last week was maybe the first time since i've become an st that i seriously though about quitting the field forever, but then i read somewhere that you should never quit on a bad day, so it feels like i should maybe be making a ( Read more... )

i feel strangely calm for someone who's been told their dad has cancer and there's the smallest possibility that their mum might as well, all in the span of what feels like the busiest week of the year. and we don't even know for sure how bad the cancer is, or what type of cancer it is, and won't know for at least another week, which means there's ( Read more... )

( 2022! )

i gave up on this in the middle of last year but i've seen and am planning to see some interesting things this year, so in the interest of not forgetting:
( new year, new movie list! )

i feel like my head's been a little bit of a mess lately. not in a bad way, necessarily, but i'm coming down from that time of the month and there was a sudden influx of gay tv shows and a new zhanzhan drama but also christopher plummer just died and who knew that in 2021 i would still be getting weirdly emotional about fandom-type things? i ( Read more... )

i've never had a hard time with learning. i put zero stock in mensa - not least of all because of cultural bias, the population it's normed on, the entire definition of intelligence, really - but as a preschooler i was, for a given point in time, for a given definition of intelligence, a mensa member ( Read more... )

honestly, there is a fuck ton of stuff i should and want to talk about, but at this point my computer screen gives me hives unless i'm reading or on youtube, so i'll keep it brief.

things that i am enjoying about this lockdown:

• bra free quarantine
  
• waking up at 8.45am (maaaaaybe 8.30) for work at 9am (to be fair, i was waking up at 7.30 to make ( Read more... )

home stretch now!! and this is a good one, because berlin may have been my favourite stop ( of all. )

on to ( china! )

so it feels like forever that we've been dealing with the coronavirus, and travel plans have been put on hold indefinitely (i was really looking forward to that road trip across the south ): ): ):) but instead of that, or doing any actual travelling, i'm going to (finally!) talk about the last three trips i took instead. yay for writing things down ( Read more... )